I felt all eyes were on me, judging me…
It can feel that people are always judging so you avoid eating in view of people. It becomes a habit.
It can take many forms, eating the leftovers in the kitchen while clearing up.
Finishing the kids meals when they are done.
Eating a small amount in public then popping out for an errand and sneaking something to eat.
Drive-throughs are great because you can drive around until finished, and leave the rubbish in the car. Hopefully no one will try to clean under the seats. You intend to do that yourself later.
Eating at your desk so that you can pick for longer and the others don’t see.
Sneaking food while everyone is out then hiding the wrappers so they cannot be seen in the bin.
There are many more.
These habits make it difficult to lose weight, to really be happy. The more you sneak food and eat in private the more depressed you get, fearful someone will find out.
It feels like things will never change.
You will never reach your goal.
I have been there. I felt like I was out of control and that I could not be honest with myself about what I was eating.
There are so many options but it can feel as if there are none, that it is easy for others to change but that you are different.
Our minds can tell us this to keep us safe, (in case the unknown is good for us), to keep us in the place we are used to.
I found a way out, and you can as well.
The first step is to be honest with yourself. Keep track of how many times you do the following each day, each week.:-
What you are eating.
When you are eating.
How many times to hide your eating.
Don’t try to stop suddenly. Make slow changes. Then decide you are ready for the next step!