Like most of you, I am so glad that we are coming out of lockdown, and that vaccines are being rolled out. 2020 ended badly and 2021 started even worse.
This is my new start, later in the year than most people.
For those who don’t know, my parents contracted Covid at the end of the year, my mother started to get better, but my father got worse, and was hostpitalised before Christmas.
He lost his battle on the 31st of January. I do not live close to them, I’m in another country so could only communicate via zoom, video calls, phone and email. Because we were in a new lockdown I could not go home for his funeral. I could not grieve with my family.
I am known as being a strong person, being single I have to be. This nearly broke me, it was not the only thing going on in my life, I moved just before Christmas to get away from noisy neighbours and had to decide what to do with my flat, store my furniture, continue working at my contract job, which was very busy.
Bob Davison and Katherine Davison – 2006
Losing my dad was just too much. It is never the right time to lose a parent. We can turn to food to help comfort us.
It might help for a short while, but does not help long term. I gave myself a few moments where I could wallow with food, sit and cry and eat some chocolate. But not every day.
My dad would not want me to gain back the weight and be more unhappy. Each time I miss him I force myself to remember some of the lovely and happy memories with him. How he used to tell us how he walked uphill in the snow to school for miles, then his sister showed me he lived across the road from his school.
I let myself cry and sometime laugh at the same time. It helps me to move forward. I will always miss him.
He wanted my business to succeed. That pushes me, I cannot succeed if I spend all my time grieving. Now instead of copious calls to the hospital in Canada, I schedule in time to work on my business.
Before Christmas I was rebranding. That was going great except for my website, which was not formatting the way I wanted. It has taken longer than I wanted but is now in the new brand, KatherineDavison.com
We can let the low times in our lives hold us back, or we can remember the good and find a way to move forward.
So apologies for not being in touch, I am now starting new. Over the coming months I have new programs I have designed, and I am going to start doing workshops, one on how to eat mindfully. I dedicate all this to my dad.
xoxo